"It's been months since I departed from the Colonies, and weeks since I've spent my nights in this room wondering how I even got here. Varu is safe, and Nahl Nehani has given us a new goal, a future to look into. To become wiser and stronger, to find and rally those who can and would help us. But is it all really as simple as that?
Would Varu have been okay if it weren't for Nahl Nehani and Brenorn? I sure owe them a debt of gratitude for finding my brother when they did... but what if they didn't? Would I have found him in time, before he was lost and out of my reach? Varu's mind is now broken, and he seems haunted by the memories of his time as a prisoner. I wonder if I can actually help him, get him back to the one he used to be. He seems ready to follow my guidance, but will the path I get him to walk through be the right one?
And what of our goal of finding able warriors, improving and learning in our own skill and ability in this new, unknown land? I see nothing but cowards and rabble everywhere I look, and very very few are warriors I'd deem worthy of song. The society Bree-landers live on is corrupted to the bone, and they all seem to be happy about it, delighted to waste their days away in their taverns, drinking one pitcher after another full of that poison they're so hooked to.
Still... Nahl Nehani's word is one I trust and would follow blindly. I was fascinated when I saw her coming to visit the Colonies so long ago, but not as much as I was to find her in this forsaken land, so far away from our home. Was finding her here mere coincidence? Is there truly hope for this people, and something to learn from them? All that matters now is that she's given us a chance to be part of something bigger, this Covenant... and just for this chance alone I'll pledge my weapon and knowledge to them as well as her, and make the best out of it. I must keep my hopes up, for me and Varu, and not forget about my mistakes and weaknesses so I'm able to overcome them. We have a chance, and we must take it. I, we, must not fail."
