Journal~
It is a strange thing that is happening in my life. I think I'm falling for someone, and I think I am falling hard. And its someone eve Mama would approve of! He's a captain, and he has money! Mama would die happy to be sure.
Thats not what makes me fall for him though. Edelred is a man who is utterly handsome, and honestly, I don't think there could be a man more handsome than he. But before you think me small-minded, I must admit, the biggest thing about me that makes my heart leap is the way he is with my son.
I swear, he treats my son as if he were his own son, playing with him, holding him, cuddling him. The way he looks at Raedan, it makes my heart melt. I never thought I would meet a man like Edelred who would take to helping me with my son like a duck takes to water. I nearly cried the moment he revealed that he would love to be there to help me with Raedan. I was certain he misunderstood me when I said I was looking for someone to help me with him... but then he revealed that he knew what it was like to be alone.
And then there is the way he makes me feel. I've never thought myself beautiful, But when I am around him, he makes me feel like there is no one more beautiful than me in this world. And he takes great pride in escorting me places, it makes me feel like I'm ... Oh words can't describe it. Or the way he kisses me... well.. its enough to make me soar. I'm pretty sure there is no better feeling in the world.
Now we both have our pasts we are trying to reconcile, but I think we can get through them together. Nothing would make me happier than to help Edelred with his woes, and him with mine. And I think it is to some degree. When we first found ourselves in the Jasmine Garden, he told me he thought about me and Raedan the entire time he was in the trollshaws, and that pretty much means he thought about us since the haystack incident. I couldn't believe it... I still can't. I must be the luckiest woman in the world right now...
~Rohweyna
