The world seems so much smaller from Bree's little walls but as soon as you step beyond them its size becomes uncomparable. I never really travelled before the kidnapping, indeed a trip to Combe would be a long day out for me as a youngster. I lived in a little bubble of beauty and the ugly world beyond the bubble was of no concern to me. I had no idea that one day I would be travelling in it, exploring it, living in it. My horizons get broader by the day both literally and figuratively, in the sense that as I travel more I learn more about the world in general.
One of the things I've learnt since I stepped beyond Bree's walls is that hunger and the outside world walk hand in hand. I've lost large amounts of weight and I've gone hungry more times than I care to think about. The worst time for this was when I ran away from Carlotta for a week. I really don't know what came over me to be fair...but every person I met was some guilty reminder of my past or a symbol of terror. I couldn't cope! I ran and didn't look back once! The week went by and I barely knew what happened. Night and day merged into one. I remember being hungry, thirsty but most of all an aching loneliness wrenched at my soul leading me further into my pit of dispair. I couldn't escape! I couldn't return! Nothing seemed right...the world became a collidoscope of silence and terror and all I wanted to do was scream! In all honesty I think if Carlotta had not found me when she did I would have taken the sweet road of madness....
It passed as all things do or so I keep being told...
We travelled. I don't know where, I just let myself be lead along and then we came to a place with a waterfall, a river and woodlands around it. Its a beautiful spot and it was there that we met Daerundros the elf and Guvadan the man. Chance meetings seem to happen a great deal at that pretty spot. We've talked, I fell in the river, it rained, what needs to be said? All I know is that I've learnt a great deal from the old and wise and maybe, one day, I may become old and wise myself...
